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The following was copied and edited from a meditation journal kept at the time of the meditation. This is being posted two days after most of it was written.

Duration: 15 minutes, 8:45 to 9:00PM

Position: lotus

Environment: bedroom floor, white noise from humidifier in the hallway, minimal distractions.

Before

Hyper, short breaths, dstracted, slight stress, slightly mentally and physically tired.

During

Started with awareness of surroundings, slowly lost that awareness as I fell into my own thought. I let my thoughts pop into my head and I consciously kept them moving. I chose to stop on certain thoughts to think more about them. It was similar to scrolling through pictures on an iPhone. I eventually was aware of breathing and posture as if I was somewhere far away, deep inside my mind. At times, I completely lost awareness of my body, only to receive subtle, distant reminders every so often. It was very relaxing and enjoyable. I used logical reasoning to consider different aspects of my life. 

After

I feel much calmer and even more aware of myself. My surroundings are now hardly drawing my attention. My mind feels like it went through a detox: it is clearer and more relaxed, similar to how it feels after a really relaxing sleep. I feel more like I am a part of myself now then a part of the surroundings, anchored to my mind. I feel more focused and relaxed. I should do this more often.